Am I the man I want to be, more importantly, am I the Warrior Christ sees in me. I will be the first to tell you I am not even close. Sometimes I am strong and sometimes I am so weak I dwell on the failures for days.
The following are a few, because there are many, of my failures. I have failed to speak up at times when racial or gender issues come up in a group setting. I have failed to keep my eyes under control when a woman is dressed provocatively. I have failed to give my family the Daddy/Husband time they so desperately crave. I have failed at being the spiritual leader in my household. I have failed to set time out of each day for my Father in Heaven.
I struggle with these and other things throughout the week. I choose to give into these struggles because I don't want to cause trouble for a group of people. What harm is there in not keeping my eyes under control, I am just looking. There will always be time tomorrow for my Father in Heaven and family. I am not prepared or strong enough to be the spiritual leader right now. How can I possibly forgive them for what they did?
Father, help me, give me the strength to always keep my eyes on you and fight for what you know is right. Make me a better Warrior.
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First off, you're not alone. We're not alone. Secondly, we should always remember that it is not a sin to be tempted, lest that would mean the Perfect Man (The warrior of us all) sinned. Lastly, to be better warriors we have to know our enemy. Knowing your enemy is paramount in modern warfare just as it is in spiritual warfare. We must recognize that Satan is capable of attacking us emotionally, physically, and spiritually - he roams the very earth where we dwell. You see, beholding a beautiful woman as God's creation, is not a sin. Being tempted through fleshly desires is not a sin - acting on them is. I find comfort in laughing at Satan when I know he is tempting me. It can be as simple as looking the other way when I am exposed to a provacative situation, and praying to myself at the same time, seeking the strength of the Lord to help me forget what I have seen. He usually obliges with a comforting thought or picture of my wife. Once I realized how easy it is, I take great joy in claiming those small but significant victories! Satan wants us to think we are weak, and distract us from the truth...because he also knows that we can do ALL things through Christ!
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