Who am I?

Am I the man I want to be, more importantly, am I the Warrior Christ sees in me. I will be the first to tell you I am not even close. Sometimes I am strong and sometimes I am so weak I dwell on the failures for days.
The following are a few, because there are many, of my failures. I have failed to speak up at times when racial or gender issues come up in a group setting. I have failed to keep my eyes under control when a woman is dressed provocatively. I have failed to give my family the Daddy/Husband time they so desperately crave. I have failed at being the spiritual leader in my household. I have failed to set time out of each day for my Father in Heaven.
I struggle with these and other things throughout the week. I choose to give into these struggles because I don't want to cause trouble for a group of people. What harm is there in not keeping my eyes under control, I am just looking. There will always be time tomorrow for my Father in Heaven and family. I am not prepared or strong enough to be the spiritual leader right now. How can I possibly forgive them for what they did?
Father, help me, give me the strength to always keep my eyes on you and fight for what you know is right. Make me a better Warrior.